I Quit

I quit.

I quit a race I never signed up for with people I never invited. I quit a role that exhausts me and gives me nothing for gratitude or appreciation. I quit exhausting myself over and over again trying to please or fulfill you when I realize that there is no task or measure that I can walk to, to fill that tall order.

I quit.

I quit looking for the validation of other people before realizing on my own that I never needed it. I only needed mine. I quit trying to figure out whether or not I was good enough or stacked up enough because of where I fit with another or against them. I quit trying to fit in, trying to belong to a group that I don’t even understand and who never tried to understand me.

I quit.

I walk away from the type of people who manipulate you for their own sake, who drag you back in a game of tug of war to make you wonder if it’s you or if it’s them…wonder if you’re going crazy or if you’re actually sane for finally seeing it, just only still feel like you’re going crazy.

I quit.

I quit knocking me. I quit doubting me. I quit trying to change me to fit in to your needs or standards when I realize that you are not trying to fit in to anything at all.

I quit.

I quit trying to be everything to you and nothing to me when nothing changes and I realize that I’m the one who stands back up, who pats me off, who dusts me off, who pats my back, who gets me going again. I’m the one who doesn’t quit on me.

I quit.

But please know that as I’m walking away, as I’m laying it all down and walking into my future, I quit you. I don’t quit me. I’m just getting started. I am fully me, no longer whoever it was you needed me to be at the sake of myself.

I quit.